Crossroads
"I am not suffering from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it." Anonymous.
Mom's words, when I asked her why she bought me my greasy breakfast if she thought it was so bad for me, were, "But you always had to get what you want."
Fuj once said to me,"I try to like the life that I lead. You, on the other hand, always aim to lead the life that you like. You will never be satisfied until that happens."
T'is true, too. My life as it is now, is the result of following my dreams and desires wherever they lead. The problem is, like a cholestrol-laden breakfast, getting what I want has sometimes been bad for me, and occassionally disastrous.
But hey, you choose it, you live with it.
If you aim to be a domestic goddess with 1.37 kids, a great family life and not much else to brag about, then voila, it is within your reach.
If you want to spend your late 20s making the most of what youthfulness you have still in you, wearing tattoos, suffering hangovers, partying like the reckless young woman you were too cautious to be before -- you can do that too.
And if your heart lies in having a successful career, power and glory, and the material trappings to show for them, then that can be done too.
At least, these are the choices I give myself now. One out of three. If I summoned all of my energy to do all these, maybe two out of three. But you can't have it all.
But as they teach in game theory, sometimes a person ends up better if you don't give him/her any choices. Alternatives mess up your mind, and may land you in dangerous, unknown lands. It is sometimes better to just have no choice.
Everything is possible. Everything has a price.
Mom's words, when I asked her why she bought me my greasy breakfast if she thought it was so bad for me, were, "But you always had to get what you want."
Fuj once said to me,"I try to like the life that I lead. You, on the other hand, always aim to lead the life that you like. You will never be satisfied until that happens."
T'is true, too. My life as it is now, is the result of following my dreams and desires wherever they lead. The problem is, like a cholestrol-laden breakfast, getting what I want has sometimes been bad for me, and occassionally disastrous.
But hey, you choose it, you live with it.
If you aim to be a domestic goddess with 1.37 kids, a great family life and not much else to brag about, then voila, it is within your reach.
If you want to spend your late 20s making the most of what youthfulness you have still in you, wearing tattoos, suffering hangovers, partying like the reckless young woman you were too cautious to be before -- you can do that too.
And if your heart lies in having a successful career, power and glory, and the material trappings to show for them, then that can be done too.
At least, these are the choices I give myself now. One out of three. If I summoned all of my energy to do all these, maybe two out of three. But you can't have it all.
But as they teach in game theory, sometimes a person ends up better if you don't give him/her any choices. Alternatives mess up your mind, and may land you in dangerous, unknown lands. It is sometimes better to just have no choice.
Everything is possible. Everything has a price.
posted by Erica Tay at 3:15 AM
1 Comments:
Destiny.
Try to keep yourself
from becoming a statistic
with 1.37 kids
Don't be in a hurry to get benefits and aid the replacement levels
like one of those government freaks.
Game theory.
gee wheez louise
reminds me of the second Matrix movie
now what a mess that turned out to be.
best,
R
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